january 2015- blank canvas

Vagabonding once again. I have spent most of my twenties as a vagabond. A gypsy. Traveling. Adventuring. I was over it for a time. So I settled in NYC. Now I'm at it again. No real physical home. No address. No destination. I basically live in my car. But not. I'm currently in the back seat of Anna and Greg's Prius. We started in Charleston (by way of Hilton Head) to Virginia Beach, to her parents in Delaware and now headed to NYC.

I'm ready to be there for a week or so again. I'm excited to experience the city in a stress free manner. No agenda. No work. No rent. I want to stroll instead of race. There were times where my pace was do fast I would lose myself.

I have so much appreciation for who I have become this past year. For the things I have learned. For the things I have let go of and the things I have gained. The things that challenged and changed me. The lists are long.

My mind had been changed.

2014 was the year of growth, change, struggle, choice, and breakthrough.

I was faced with the depths of myself. Realities and desires that could not be ignored.

Realities-
I am in love with a man. My best friend. And it's been hard.

I let NYC go and I'm happier.

I have choice in my life. I can create a life I desire.

I have a desire to work in the counseling helping people field.

I desire to work with a team to create something life changing for people.

I'm open to what God has for me.

I desire a intentional community.


So once again I am an open book. Blank canvas.
My prayer and desire is that my life would help others. That I could live in a way that inspires, serves, lifts, helps and challenges others. That I would be open to the leadings and teachings and direction the Spirit would give. I hope to let go if the expectations I have and live in the now.

What do I want the theme of my 2015 to be?

Blank canvas. Open to starting something new. Fresh. Whimsy. Open to being surprised by the Spirit. Creating what I believe. Taking risks and living adventures. Loving the ones in my life to love. Fully. Unreserved adoration and support to my loved ones.